I am what I am

Things have been really hectic on my end of the world. Trying to balance work, family, friends, and my etsy shop has been a little crazy. Sometimes, I think I can actually hear the hairs on my head screaming. I would really love to update my blog more frequently because I think about things to write all the time. For some reason though, I can’t seem to 1. find the right things to say, or 2. think of the right way to say something. I guess I put a lot of pressure on myself to make whatever I say perfect. Isn’t that how a lot of us are though? We are constantly seeking perfection. This very thought has been flowing through my mind a lot recently. As I struggle to balance everything, I find myself being stretched too thin. I want to do everything and be everything to everyone. I do mean this in a literal sense. When it comes to me, the ambition that I have can be overwhelming. The things God has shown me for my life, awesome as it is, can literally take a person’s breath away.

I recently took another look at a collage I did a few years ago. When I was creating it, I did so in a very quick manner. The images I chose didn’t seem to mean anything at the time. As I glued them on the canvas, I just remember them being visually pleasing to my eye. I did, however, add a photo of myself and the phrase saying “I am what I am”. I just liked that photo of myself. J You know, it’s funny how our mind works sometimes. Looking at the collage stare back at me now, I am beginning to see exactly what my heart’s intentions were. It was a self-portrait. The funny thing is though is that the images I chose to include in the collage speak to me now in a way that reassures me. I am reminded that perfection is not in being everything but in being exactly one thing; simply, what I am.