I am what I am

Things have been really hectic on my end of the world. Trying to balance work, family, friends, and my etsy shop has been a little crazy. Sometimes, I think I can actually hear the hairs on my head screaming. I would really love to update my blog more frequently because I think about things to write all the time. For some reason though, I can’t seem to 1. find the right things to say, or 2. think of the right way to say something. I guess I put a lot of pressure on myself to make whatever I say perfect. Isn’t that how a lot of us are though? We are constantly seeking perfection. This very thought has been flowing through my mind a lot recently. As I struggle to balance everything, I find myself being stretched too thin. I want to do everything and be everything to everyone. I do mean this in a literal sense. When it comes to me, the ambition that I have can be overwhelming. The things God has shown me for my life, awesome as it is, can literally take a person’s breath away.

I recently took another look at a collage I did a few years ago. When I was creating it, I did so in a very quick manner. The images I chose didn’t seem to mean anything at the time. As I glued them on the canvas, I just remember them being visually pleasing to my eye. I did, however, add a photo of myself and the phrase saying “I am what I am”. I just liked that photo of myself. J You know, it’s funny how our mind works sometimes. Looking at the collage stare back at me now, I am beginning to see exactly what my heart’s intentions were. It was a self-portrait. The funny thing is though is that the images I chose to include in the collage speak to me now in a way that reassures me. I am reminded that perfection is not in being everything but in being exactly one thing; simply, what I am.


Laura said...


I don't know how I came about your blog or shop on Etsy, but I clicked through from somewhere (maybe Entercard) else. I just wanted to stop by and say "hi," and that I love your pendants! Your journals are beautiful too, of course. Maybe we can collaborte sometime -- I'll get one of your pendants an add it to some of my beads. It'd be a beautiful thing!

Kelly Schwark said...

Boy, this post speaks right to my heart! Not only do I understand EVERY word of it, but I've had the same exact thoughts recently! I've finally decided to just go with the flow and enjoy the hectic chaos! Hope to bump into some more over at Etsy!